The hidden truth……
October 12th, 2008Hello every one!
Today I would like to share my experience with the some hidden truths that I encountered in my� life.
Yesterday, as I was sorting out my old diaries, I came across the one which I wrote when I was working with an NGO on a project from Netherlands. I thought this is the right time to share it with you all.
The final finale of completing the project successfully, was arranged� in Calcutta for a week at Godiahutt. As a project coordinator and� also my own interest in dramatics,� I took an active part in finalizing the events for each day, for audience from various sections who contributed their share for the developmental activities planned by the NGO. They included the members from local� Government, the Team from Netherlands who sponsored the whole project and various organizations from all over India who volunteered and ensured the successful implementation of the project through out the country in the remote villages. Among the invitees there were also the village workers who worked at the grass root levels in identifying the need for the implementation of the project. I am very happy as this stayed,� as one of my most successful achievements of my life till today.
During that one week, of my stay at Calcutta,� I also met various people from different Organizations who were working to bring out a change in the society. One such person is Alkaji who was working in a rehabilitation center, where people were cured for different addictions like drinking, drug abuse, and various psychic problems in martial relationships. She works as a counselor. I became interested, and asked her if I can visit the organization where she works. She gladly agreed and invited me. She quickly made arrangements for the travel. The next day I canceled my reservations to Hyderabad and went with her.
My journey with Alkaji was one of the most memorable,� as I gained� knowledge about lives of various unfortunate victims in the society who become addicts and� become� mentally weak, who also pose a threat not only to themselves but also to the society out side. After arriving the scheduled place, I visited each cell where the patients were kept.� Listening to the heart wrenching� stories told by the nurses, my eyes became wet. Many times in my life, I wrote letters to God, blaming� for not giving me something which I truly deserved, I felt that I have been cheated and I was not justified even though gifted with all the creative abilities and there used to be� one question… always� nagging in my mind…. WHY ME?
The visit to rehab center has opened my eyes to things which I had not been focusing till that moment. I felt that God had not closed his listening to me, in fact he was always there for me, with in me, holding me to his bosom in the form of my mother who protected me and my kids. Ensured that I get equal love and affection from all other members of my family, paved path for my self development, encouraging me to take the challenges in work and life. At that moment I thought I was more fortunate that I had a loving family around me other wise perhaps I would have ended up like one those patients there. This realization has sparked a new enthusiasm towards life and I found that my life indeed had a purpose and meaning.
Today when I look back, in the absence of my mother who left to her heavenly abode nine years back, I realized that this was the message she wanted to give me when she tried to speak on her death bead. She could not speak, as her speech trachea and vocal cords were damaged� by the artificial respiration tubes inserted in her throat. But I saw her eyes as she took my hands for the last time in her hands…..that she was trying to convey the same message to me….and God had sent Alkaji to show me the truth which my mother could not voice. Yes! I am special indeed, in spite of� all the bad events in my life, I was the chosen one.
When ever I feel lost, I take out my dairies and read� my communications with God and my mother to regain my balance and keep moving in my life. My life has since, seen many twists and turns but there is always a gut feeling when ever I take major decisions.� And I am always correct.� I was thankful to God that he had indeed showed� me the truth that had been searching for many years by engaging an encounter with Alakaji who dedicated her life to help victims of various abuses.