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When I Exist......

Posted by aleen dyan in HYDER E WADI on May 13, 2008 12:50:00 AM

Hello dear friends....it's long time since I logged in to IBIBO.....seems every one had lots fun......good...though I was away I could feel the vibrations of all the ibiboans. Suddenly.... life seems to come to a standstill point ....from where I do not know where to look or tread in which direction.....and if I have choosen the right path and took the correct decession. Oh! How do I face this situation......I can feel, I exist in such situations. I dont know what's happening and where am I going....like a zoombi....I am doing things which are supposed to be done by me....there is no life in the things I do....and there is no correlation in my work and my thoughts....and these thoughts like the bees in the hive.....buzz...making me feel more depressed of my situation....YES in such situation I only exist...not knowing how the time runs....the magical world around me goes unseen and unobserved. Some times I exist when I wash the dishes...or put cloths in the mechine.....these things I dread to do. But, I totally cannot say if I exist or live while discussing about these things....for I know it might look odd if I sing and dance while doing dishes or cloths. But, sure I can make things lively....only if I can love what I have been doing. Past is some thing which comes haunting...again and again...the regrets...the mistakes...and the moments which were lost....while I ponder over these I feel I am only existing ....for I was loosing those precious moments of living... In the same way when I do my routine work...like drinking Tea and at the same time reading paper...I just exist...for I never enjoyed either my Tea or the News because they are so mechanical. TO BE CONTINUED.......

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