Save one to Save All

We think we move on, just by saying it,

That positive words triumph over the past,

But sometimes we find ourselves back at the beginning,

Where looking forward never lasts.

 
And so invariably our minds elicit ugly pictures,

That make our eyes close in fear,

Hearts of steel are cold for a reason,

When too much dies throughout the years.

History has its way of resurfacing,

Of reminding us of what we’ve gone through,

When only the scars of the flesh ever truly fade,

But their imprints on the soul never do.

Because nothing fought in blood is easily forgotten,

Brotherhoods formed in tears and turmoil

Are stronger than those formed in peace,

When war is waged on innocence,

A man’s dedication to reclaim youth’s freedom

Is as ferocious as a beast.

And so he’ll kill for the cause of childhood’s injury,

Risk it all to undo the shame done,

Because sometimes to save all,

You only need to save one.

                                                          (self-made)

Inspired by: The Kite Runner and the characters Hassan and Sohrab. Dedicated to: All the Hassans and Sohrabs in the world, I’d like to save atleast one of you someday.

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God vs God

    We say we’re open-minded and that we live in a world technologically advanced, a society ideologically innovative and spiritually evolved. Yet here we are, in this gilded age of reason, still fighting over something no man can ever change…religion and belief. What is religion? Why do we persist in thinking that one man’s perception of God is better than another? Why is it some of us truly believe, with every nerve and fiber of our being, that we invest more faith in God when we belittle another man’s belief and faith? Why? We claim to be in the age of enlightenment, intellectually, emotionally, religiously endowed with knowledge and wisdom that is limitless, yet the problem persists that we’re no longer fighting each other anymore, indirectly, whether some of us choose to admit it or not, we’re fighting Gods. We’re the warriors defending religion with a duty, when in truth and infact, the last person God wants to fight his ‘battles’ is one of us. I doubt that the same God who created us, wanted us to fight FOR him. What difference does it make in who believes what? Another’s belief doesn’t diminish our own, one man’s faith does not cripple nor crucify another’s. It’s sad knowing that men can agree so wholeheartedly on war, but not on God. The battle of beliefs is bloodier, sicker, more sadistic and dehumanising than the battle for power. We claim to have matured from the time of World Wars and such, but I believe things have gotten supremely worst, only the times have change, but the driving need to overpower another now manifests itself in the desire for some to religiously gain power over another. The disappointing fact is, we never overpower another person, we only subdue another person’s ideas with our own and that submission of ideas is only ever temporarily done, for no man can kill the passionate beliefs of another, especially when he credits those beliefs with his existence.

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For those…

   For those people who help someone just because, not needing a reason to be kind, you’re someone’s unexpected gift. For those who stop to say a kind word to a friend, a relative, or even a complete stranger, you’re an angel on this earth, you’ve just made someone feel special and appreciated. For those of us who walk holding our inner child’s hand, because that childishness we never lost makes everyone love us in some strange way, it’s an innocence you can’t put a price to, an innocence you can never buy, hold your inner child’s hand as tightly as possible, it makes life appear in colour everyday. Life is never gray, never black and white, it’s almost a painting with so many colours because of that child in us that loves to laugh at silly things, it is that child that always wants to help, to be a little reason of hope and a ray of sunshine to a world that seems to turn in utter darkness. For those of us who hold doors open for unknown faces behind us, the universe is applauding and so is that anonymous face you think wouldn’t care if you held it or not. For those of us who say goodmorning even to the cleaner or the maid or the seemingly reticient employee who has a supposed ‘menial’ task, you’ve just told him/her you consider him/her your equal and that a job title doesn’t make anyone more or less of a human being, you’ve just managed to equal the playing fields of life, that sometimes can be unfair to good people and fair to bad people. For those of us who sit in a corner sometimes, wanting to be alone, tired and frustrated after a long day, when unexpectedly a stranger asks to sit with us, just to make polite conversation, and you engage the stranger out of politeness sake, the fates are cheering you on for your warm heart. For those who motivate the wretchedly depress even when there’s nothing to be gained, for those who aim to achieve only because we dream of helping someone other than ourself, that’s the mark of a man/woman. For those who are restless and miserable because of the inhumanity in the world, you are rare and timeless, your only flaw is in feeling too much, you are the ones to make a difference in the world, the ones who leave their indelible marks, don’t stop feeling for others and dreaming of change. "To feel for one, is to feel for all". For those who live to love and embrace love with open arms, you are beautiful. You’ve managed to find beauty among the ugliness on earth, hold on to it and don’t take it for granted. For those who relinquish their cynicism and jaded perceptions because of bad experiences, you’ve managed to be set free emotionally, bid farewell to those biting chains that only imprison us in a hell of our making, there is still much beauty in the world to be felt, seen and touched, let go of the past,so it can let go of you. For those of us who run with the underdogs, trying to be a leader to them, even though we ought to be up their with the other first class winners, we have long to go, far to travel, but ours is a journey that crosses the finish line of purpose, not of prizes, we don’t aim for first place, we run for a reason and that reason is for another man’s self-worth, there is much to be gained in this race because there are no winners and no losers. For those of us who change ourselves without trying to change another, we have realised the first truth in love, "you can never change someone, he/she will change only if he wants to", no one can make someone change, it’s all self-induced. As Mahatma Gandhi once said "You must be the change you wish to see". For those who cry, who hurt and feel a stabbing pain from loneliness, it won’t last forever, nothing does. Only the most beautiful of hearts find it hard to find the right one, because the most beautiful things in life don’t come easily, though they are the simplest, they only come through hard work, like everything else in life. Don’t mourn for what you don’t have, rejoice in what you do and only then you’ll see your other dreams coming through. Love takes time. For those who are searching for truth, it’s not out there waiting to be discovered, it is in you waiting to be revealed, that is the only truth, we make our truths where we make our fantasies. For those who live through expression, words, meanings and signs, you are genius unknown, your genius lies in your ability to feel and express yourself, not many of us can do that. And finally, for those of us who sit alone and think ourselves social outcasts from the world, you are only an outcast from decadence and debauchery, your worth is greater than you can ever imagine. For those of us who give kind words, who praise someone they don’t even know because they genuinely want to, you are living inspirations without realising it, I know this, because I write this for those of you who read my blog and like my style, my words,my expression and my thoughts. For those of you who read this…you are one of my many reasons for being the way that I am:) Thank you! The most rewarding feeling is the feeling of being appreciated, it’s one of every human’s basic higher needs, I’m grateful that I am needed in some small way:)

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Playful Fantasy

    Listening to George Michael’s Kissing A Fool, it’s so sunny outside, almost as if I’m on the beach listening to him, with an open sky before me, endless space, no limits, no barriers and walls, just an infinite sea of possibilities, chances, ideas, dreams and thoughts. Light-hearted atmosphere, let’s see, maybe a very very cold fruit punch drink i’m holding, looking at the sun, squinting my eyes because it’s so bright but I don’t mind the temporary blindness because I know when I look away, I’ll see the beauty before me again. Cool breeze, the hot sand beneath my feet starts to get cooler as I approach the shore, the little shells and stones in the water playfully rush to the shore and back with the waves, as if they’re secretly racing each other like kids. The water is almost crystal clear blue, the blue you only see in someone’s eyes, almost green, as if it’s not sure which colour will make it look more inviting.  And the music you hear only when you’re at peace and all your cares just drift away on the waves and crash against the shore, taken away and removed from mind, is the most heartfelt feeling you can experience, when you finally feel you’re contented with who you are, where you are in life and where you intend to go…only then you love life as much as life truly loves you!

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Nothing lasts forever

      I thought that things could have been different, we all like to believe we can be someone’s reason for change at some point in our lives, whether it’s a child’s reason, or an adult…man or woman. Well i misled myself into thinking I could be your reason, how blind I was! I assumed that because I was different it would have motivated you to be different too, but it obviously didn’t. I’m amazed at how easily swayed people can be and even more amazed that lust and even love makes us slaves, even to oursleves. I refused to be controlled by my mind and common sense and that’s part of the beauty of love or atleast the ‘idea’ of love, we don’t let anything control us, except our hearts because at that particular time we believe nothing is more honest, nor more truthful than love itself. We believe that love is the only master we answer to and the silly thing is, that’s the only master we’ll ever allow to rule and govern us, to have power over us. Except next to love is its neighbour hate, an overwhelming hate that is so closely tied to love, almost to be its wicked twin brother. But I couldn’t hate you because for me, the other side to my love was MORE love for you. It was an obsession truth be told. And I never admitted it to you because though love enslaved me, I would never allow you to have that supreme power over me. However, the good thing I’ve learnt is that all power comes to an end, even love’s, especially an unfair one. And now that we’ve both moved on, I don’t hope anymore that you still care about me, honestly, because deep down inside, I know you can never forget the way I made you feel, because I could never forget that you were the first to Make me feel. And for this I can never forget you.

What I’m looking for:

Someone to bring me the stars and the moon.

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Live the life

Didn’t need to ask
Don’t know the reason
Everything that I believe
Is right here

Difference between me and you
It’s all in where your heart lies
And every day’s another chance
We Are One

So let’s get it right

I am you
And you are me
We are one
Take me in your arms
And flow through me
I’ll flow through you

One of the few songs that grant me peace these days, whenever I hear it, it makes me think I’m one with the universe, one with life, it is in me as I am a part of it. I’m beginning to think life is as much in love with me, as I am with it, what else can explain the beautiful relationship we have with each other? It’s inspiring to be an inspiration to others and consoling to know life rewards the simple things, like kindness, gratitude and love. There’s a quote that says "Life is sweet and kind to you, if you have been sweet and kind to it", i’m beginning to believe I have done some kinds things, hence my rewards that I’m reaping everyday I wake up and begin anew. My purpose here, for the short time I have been given by the creator is to give to life instead of always taking from it, and by that i mean to give to others even if you don’t always get back in return, there’s a higher more noble gift to get and I know ‘he’ rewards justly. I think simple things make life worthwhile, I try to appreciate one simple thing everyday, and to my surprise, I always see it in a greater way;) I lose myself in simplicity and you know what, I find that I’m happiest in those moments:)

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Don’t let people limit you

  I was sitting talking to a ‘friend’ of mine, it’s funny how these relations in life are. You try to be polite to people, to build them up as individuals and it seems the more you try to build some people up, the harder they try to bring you down. It’s a paradox actually, like an architect trying to build a broken building, just doesn’t fit well together. So anyway there I am, talking about my dreams and trying to defend myself, I don’t even know why, but I was trying to defend myself, saying my life’s not consumed by books, I just have ambitions, dreams like everyone else, that I aspire to. Only to be told some dreams aren’t meant to be, especially the really big ones. And i was struck by a sudden distaste and bitter feeling toward that person that I couldn’t help but indulge in it, thinking that person so small minded, then I realised something I never knew before. I am just not of the same capacity and mental thinking of my ‘friend’. I have grown up it seems, in another country, with different morals, different thoughts and ideas, different people in my life. I have only now come to realise those closest to me are furtherst from me, my family excluded. Perhaps this is why I find it hard to think on the same wavelength as my fellow countrymen, maybe that’s why I feel nothing more than an exaggerated sympathy rather than a genuine kindness towards alot of them, my female friends excluded. I wonder what is it, that  makes me resent most guys here, why do I feel they’re not worth my time and company? Am i being so utterly difficult and self-destructive? Or am I justified in feeling they’re just so close-minded and self-contained. There’s a bigger world out there, it’s sad that not everyone can realise that at some point in his/her life, even sadder when they try to convince others that nothing else exists but the here and now in a particular setting. One person once told me "I don’t believe in long distance relationships at all", I said to myself "I believe relations see no distance", I believe there is something exquisitely beautiful about knowing someone outside your safety zone, having perspective as I call it, from the other side. It’s almost like tasting a new flavour of life and its experiences, why would I settle for the flavours that hold no appeal for me? I like crossing paths with different people, especially beautiful souls, even if it’s only virtually so, impressions leave a mark not with actions alone, but mostly with words:)
  

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Idle Thoughts.

  Let’s see, first of all, I’m on an Indian site, and I can’t speak very much Hindi.lol if that isn’t a bit insulting and embarrassing, I don’t know what is. Nevertheless, I have an excuse for that,lol i was born in the Caribbean, I grew up exposed to the Queen’s English, being colonised by her ofcourse,lol and I grew up learning Spanish and French in high school, but I do know Some Hindi in my defense. Other than my language deficiencies, I think I’m quite expressive enough with English and that satisfies my guilt of not knowing Hindi since I am Indian.
   I joined this cafe ibibo last night, on some impulse, i was listening to music on musicindiaonline.com and I saw the Ad there to meet Indian friends and post comments and such, so I don’t know why but I joined! Seeing as I’ve had hi5 and I have facebook and recently deleted my hi5 account, one would wonder, why I’m signing up for this? But here I am and shocked to see the responses I’ve gotten, I’m flattered and humbled by some of the kind-hearted and genuinely sweet things some people have said, especially with regards to my website and my poetry. I didn’t create the site, let me clarify,lol i lack any computer talent like that, my friend from India, Sudip, created my website. The only credit i can take is for the poems pasted there, those are my works which I hope to one day publish in a book. Alot of the poems are different because over the summer i’ve re-done alot of them, so if you’d like to read more, let me know:) I am happy to share them:)

 What am I looking for here? What I have been looking for my entire life and have now found in bits and pieces. People who can share my thoughts, yet have their own, understand my dreams and have me understand their own, those who can laugh with me and not at me, those who can love life and not complain for every dark cloud over their heads, but see the light beyond. I’m looking for genuine friendships and people who can leave a mark, I believe life’s made all the more worthwhile with the people you come into contact with and those few beautiful hearts who seldom cross our paths. I hope to be an inspiration to everyone or most people I meet and in the process be inspired by those I’ll meet on life’s journey;) I believe we should make the most of the little moments, those are the ones you truly remember, the ones that make you think, life’s not so bad after all;)

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