Thanks a lot for lovely comments in previous post - My Snowy....

I can see people in comments asking me to give him (Snowy) a hug...even I want to give him a hug, make him sleep on my lap, kiss him, play with him....

But he went to God 2 years back...on 7th may '06.....still its hard to believe....

I still feel I will shout 'SNOWY...SNOWY' and he will come running to me....

I will whistle and he will come....

I will show him grapes and he will come....

I will reach home and put on my bike's horn - he will come running to welcome me....

He will stand by his empty water bowl and look at me and then look at bowl...and then again look at me with most innocent looks to say something...yes, he is thirsty and is asking me to fill the bowl...

I still remember the night...it was may 6th '06, 12 am when me and my family returned from a wedding...reached home...and were surprised to see him standing near the gate....and he was just standing...It didnt took us long to realize, he was injured (some internal injuries)...and all because of me...yes I am the one who was responsible for his condition...dont ask me how I did that awful thing...but I did it...

He somehow walked and came near to all of us...I just picked him up in my hands and took him inside...make him to lie on his sheet...as time progressed his condition was getting worse...I didnt want to accept but somehow I needed to understand that slowly and slowly i was loosing him...

I made him to lie on my lap...trying to make him sleep, but he couldnt sleep...I looked at clock, it was somewhere near 2 am...I wanted time to stop at that very moment...but as each second was passing, he was going away from me...

I decided to take him for a walk, holding him close to my heart...I knew that this might be last walk...never felt so handicapped before...

Took him outside...and we were sitting...just sitting on the floor near my main gate...and sumtimes in between he stood up and moved slowly....he was not responding properly now...

at about 3 am I took him inside...I knew with every moment passing I was losing him...just wanted to love him as much as I could for the remaining time...

By 4 am his condition was more worse...he used to sleep in my parents room...at the end of day my Parent's room was his room...and at about 4 am he started moving towards that room...He knew where his room was, at that point of time as well...I put him on his small bed at about 4-4.15 am, I also closed my eyes, somewhere close to him...

At about 7 am I suddenly woke up...I cud hear my dad say,"Snowy is not moving..."...and He was gone...gone forever...left us all alone here...

I cried for days and days and today also I do cry...I really miss him...

Their is nothing that can express the loss, the feeling, the sorrow...

I have felt so much pain since then and also while writing this I felt similar pain..

He is always going to be with me...forever...my small baby...